Every now and again we lose sight of the important things in our lives. The things that matter to us the most. We consume ourselves with the hustle and bustle of busy schedules and forget to take a second to sit back and reflect on our lives. I have been working my little but off for the past 8 years. I can't remember the last time I have taken a step back to enjoy life and all the things I have accomplished so far. Being your worst critic can sometimes hold us back and prevent us from being so much more. I am that person who constantly beats herself up and I never think I am giving my all when it comes to the different aspects of my life.
Over the past two years I have managed to gain 20lbs. I am certainly not proud of it but I realized that this is a serious problem that is affecting me as a person overall. I mean there are the obvious things that come with gaining weight. My clothes don't fit, I don't have a great metabolism anymore, I feel fat all the time and of course less attractive. But the weight issue goes deeper than gaining a few pounds. I was always a chubby kid and grew up with a lot of self esteem issues. Neither my parents or family did anything to correct the teasing and torture I went through as a child. As a matter of fact they were the ones who did most of the teasing. I don't blame them for any of it because I come from a culture that knows no better. I am not trying to blame them for my weight gain or justify this through childhood issues. I am however trying to say that where gaining a few pounds for some people is not a big deal, it takes a toll on me mentally, physically and emotionally.
A few weeks ago I decided that I am going to do something that is very possible and deal with this weight issue of mine, instead of letting it eat away my personality. I decided that over the course of the next 6 months I will lose a total of 40lbs. I also thought it would be a good idea to blog about. It will be a process and definitely a journey and I want to be able to look back and see where I started and where I will end up. So for all 3 of you who do read this blog...tune in! There will be a lot of bitching and grouchiness but "no pain no gain." No one said it would be easy and next time around i'll definitely think twice before I start throwing back french fries at 3am
